I am a machine! Another 6 mile run, 600 calorie, clothes drenched in sweat workout! It is so utterly cathartic I am addicted to going and purging my body of sweat, toxins, and all the bullshit weighing on my mind. And there is a lot of it lately.
The gym has replaced the pool – though it does have a pool, I am too much of a wuss to brave the chilly night air. Plus there is just this raw satisfaction I get from my feet pounding again and again and again.
I’ve been going every day for a few weeks now. Friends keep saying that they wish I had my dedication, which I know I’ve said to gym rodent types for years. Here’s what it is: you just fucking do it. That’s the only difference. My trainer put me on a machine for an hour. I thought – I can’t do this! Start me off at 20 minutes! My heart rate was through the roof… but I did it. So I did it again the next day. And the next… now I plan my day around when I am going to the gym.
An hour is a long time, though. My mind gets bored easily. Here’s what gets me through:
-IPOD… killer workout mix is NECESSARY! Mine changes from day to day. Sometimes I love booming hip hop or rap. Sometimes I want angry industrial music. Sometimes I even want slow indie sadness.
-AGGRESSION! Take out all of your aggression (nice word for HATE) out on that stupid machine. Think of someone who has just thoroughly disappointed you. Now fight through the pain and sweat by just hating and swearing (in your mind, other gym goers will frown on you talking to yourself in obscenities) them.
-Think of how hot you look! Or how hot you are going to look!
-People watch
I have a hard time doing ANYTHING for an entire hour. But if I break it into 10 minute segments, I find I am able to handle it. What I do is I allow myself a drink of water every time I’ve completed 10 minutes. So at 49:00, 39:00, 29:00, 19:00, 9:00.
There’s no secret to any of this…
…this being life.
It is just a matter of shutting your mouth and brain and insecurities up long enough to DO IT.
So write that book. Take that class. Call that friend. Go in that store. Start that diet. Go in that gym.
The only difference between you and THEM… is that they made a decision and did it.